phantom limbs

i was lying in bed last night, trying to sleep. kept on trying to find a more comfortable position to keep the ENORMOUS CAST over my hand elevated while still managing to sleep, and hopefully not wake up with oddly sore muscles.

(this is the biggest cast/ splint yet (#3), pretty impossible to wear anything with longish sleeves; i'm so glad i'm to get a different one weds, and regain use of at least 2 uninjured fingers. at least they gave me a sling- it's heavy to keep elevated all the time. (and more prone to pain :-( ))

and at times i could've sworn my fingers were in different positions, which i know is currently impossible (my dad's description of how feet should feel in downhill ski boots seems apt: "comfortably encased in cement."). it wasn't just one time either, and i started to feel i could more clearly understand how amputees feel with phantom limbs (luckily mine had to do with position only, not pain or itching). definitely weird.


still on the finger front: surgery friday to have 2 pins put in. i found that local anesthesia is not very effective on me. and i got weirded out when i realized that the pins (under all the wrapping; i haven't seen this) stick out some, so they'll be easily taken out in the doctor's office in a few weeks. tigerbright called me "voodoo magid" when she heard, and another friend said "frankenmagid". it is a really creepy thing. [quick frisson of horror]

still getting tired very early; i'm glad the rescheduled outing to see macbeth ended up being a matinee...

Macbeth! (the musical)

well, not really. there was a lot of music, though no actual songs. the 3 witches were pretty much onstage all the time, if only in one of the many niches (a cool white set that allowed many points for arrivals & departures), often beating on some percussion instrument, a drum, or a tambourine. they also used castanets, clackers, and anklets of bells. all were in fluttery yet edgy white costumes, with rather extreme white and black makeup. they also did many of the bit parts in the play.

the production was really good; quite different fom jason's (director) production last year (completely different cast & audience). interesting to see how he sees the play.
other than the witches omnipresence, it was a fairly straight performance, not set in another time/place. and i was glad prog and treacle_well (& 2 other non-lj users (yes, there still are some!) enjoyed the play as well.

as usual, i am left wondering if the witches' prognostications would've come about had he not started on his path of regicide. and wondering about lady macbeth's upbringing- he wouldn't have done it w/o her goading. and of course i find it ironic that macduff's being born in some sort of c-section situation makes him "not of woman born" ... macbeth would have a hard time these days...