well, fuck you too

[magid]

i was already having a cranky, tired sort of day when a boss came in & said i'd have my (annual) review with the dept head at 2 pm. 2? but i leave at 1 on fridays. oh. so then i was to go to her office in half an hour. during which time i didn't do more than skim the papers she'd given me before the head of my book comes in & starts jabbering about the next lesson.

so, i go in, & we talk of other (work) things, then get down to the review.
what do i hear? well, nothing overtly negative, but no positive strokes, either. (the writeup was done by someone who i worked for for a month last year). i am told that the schedules have changed, and so i won't be switched to working on the teacher books, perhaps ever. this was what was going to get me away from the heinous head of book i can't stand to work with. i'd complained about working with her (tactfully. really.), and supposedly this was the solution. guess not.

i ask about whether i'll be training more people next year - i trained 7 people last year, and it took time. and this is what i hear: (a) i should've only trained people on my book, (b) i took it on myself to train more people, (c) i should learn to close my door & not help people. this from the woman who, when i said it was a lot to train more people, said i should put it on my fucking year-end review.

and she points out that the review is for "exempt employees", which means that i'm exempt from overtime. not working it, of course, just being paid for it. and how that's one of the disadvantages of being on staff. (fyi, she's a total workaholic). so the implication is there that i don't work enough. (i don't know if some of that is the 1 pm leave time, but i've had that since i started 9 years ago, already. shabbat-stuff, etc.)

FUCK OFF.

not that i said that. i couldn't figure it all out so quickly what i should say, however, so i was quiet. which was probably a mistake.


time to work more on the resume. i feel they're using me as much as possible, but don't support me at all.
there are a couple of people in my office i'd miss if i left, but i've started to see them sometimes outside the office.

any suggestions of what to do next, in this cruddy job market?

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[chaiya.livejournal.com]

any suggestions of what to do next, in this cruddy job market?

Well, what are your skills? What have you done in the past? What're you doing now?

I would caution you, though, that your job situation may feel better after you sleep on it or have a good weekend or something. It's difficult to get the perfect job these days, but *especially* in this job market. At least you're being paid and seem to have some job security.

Good luck! I'm signing off for Shabbos now, too. :)

[gingicat]

Wolf here, with permission.

Let me get this straight - the person doing the review told you earlier in the year that you should mention you were training too much instead of getting your book done but at least implied that you were supposed to continue. During the review this same person who so implied, who I assume has authority over you, told you that it was *your* fault for 'taking on' the work?

I do not know how it works at your company, but for some of the larger companies I have worked for there has been some process to formally review the review with someone one step higher than the initial reviewer. I do think you ought to investigate to see if your company has this, after Shabbat of course.

Anyways you know where I live. The door's open, as usual.

[hrafn.livejournal.com]

Ack! :( That's terrible! And badly managed (reviewer having - it sounds like - very little knowledge of what you do).

Smelly cheese in the heat ducts in her office? I've heard that Limburger is a good choice . . . No good job-hunting advice here, unfortunately - took me 5 months last summer/fall to find a job. Hmm - start sending resumes anywhere you think you'd like to work, I suppose.

*hugs* Remember - stinky cheese.

thanks

[magid.livejournal.com]

for the supporting words.

definitely calmer now, after 2 a cappellal concerts in 2 days, plus lots & lots of reading robin hobb (now in the middle of the 2nd book of the 2nd trilogy).

i'm still planning on leaving, but i can face work monday (tomorrow...), & not be hissy (mostly).

i think the part that scares me most is figuring out what other work i'd like to do if i don't keep editing. i don't know what i'd enjoy that i'm trained for (or could be reasonably soon) that would cover the mortgage & all those other expenses...
but some of that can be figured out later. (or at least, not now...)

Re: thanks

[chaiya.livejournal.com]

I hear the Atlantic Monthly is a good place to edit for ... just random overheard conversation tonight at Passim. :)